Tuesday, May 19, 2009

ok maybe i am spoilt. the little things i take for granted, which i expect to be done for me. like school fees, i've never had to worry about how it was being paid, i just assumed my parents would take care of it. i assume it's all taken care of. how many of us do that anw? most of us i'm sure.

but talking to sherman made me realise there are people who work to save for their education. and when i asked him why, he said "you can't expect them to pay" and i thought "but i do".

tsk. like a true spoilt child. who takes things for granted.

thank God for parents who slog and save up all their lives just so i can go to school without worrying. (: and thank God for sherman who helped me realise how blessed i am. (:

watchin u;
at 8:13 AM

many many awesome movies to watch nowadays! :D transformers: revenge of the fallen, the taking of pelham 123, monsters vs aliens, star trek etc. just saw wolverine over the weekend with bf and angels and demons with qiu yesterday. i'll probably watch anything with hugh jackman and/or ewan mcgregor in it. :D really awesome no regrets catching them! except maybe that i'm kinda spending beyond my means now. but still it's the holidays and i have to enjoy before the toturous year 2 starts. hopefully i'll be able to catch star trek with noel and sherman tmr and get a job too. job interview tmr! i'm not crazy about the job just desperate. :P

i really miss those family holidays to malaysia we used to have like almost every holiday. every family in a car just driving up to malaysia, hitting beach resorts, enjoying the sea and the pool and the good food there, getting sun burnt and coming back with a whole lot of memories. and nowadays i'm just stuck in singapore.

i shall not be jealous!

but it's too hard. especially if you're rotting a home with nothing to do.

watchin u;
at 12:13 AM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

results are gonna be out on friday and i'm kinda freaking out. and noel messaged me saying the class was planning to meet up for dinner on friday so we can compare results. GOSH. i hate comparing, it makes me feel worse. i think i've been doing a good job of not comparing during sem 2 (thank God!) though sometimes it still eats me inside how others can put in less effort and do better. though who am i to compare and judge how much effort others around me put into their work and what grades they deserve? that's why i stop comparing and seriously whatever results i get, it's a blessing from God which i pray, good or bad, will motivate me to work harder next sem. (:

anw the point abt mentioning why noel messaged me is this, he sent a really sweet sms which goes "friends add to your happiness, subtract your pain, multiply your joy and divide your sadness". he was trying to convince me to go for the class dinner haha. oh well we'll see my mood on friday.

gosh i'm kinda in a crappy mood now and i'm not quite sure why. :P

i'm still without a job and that's so sad cos it's been almost 3weeks of hunting and i wanna go shopping! hahahaha. i really need a bag right now. ok not need but want. haha. i saw a couple of nice ones but the price tags are always a deterent. sigh.

i'm not spoilt.

it sounds like i'm trying to convince myself. if someone says something about you and you know it's not true but somehow it still makes you feel bad, does that mean you're guilty of it?

sigh. again.

watchin u;
at 6:59 AM